Pain, pain, go away

Pain, Pain, go away

Don’t come back another day

Pain, Pain, hide away

Don’t want to deal with you- till I say

Pain , Pain, lingering long

Ive always been, in the wrong

Pain, Pain, go away

I don’t want to deal with you – any day

Bollocks to no pain, no gain

What doesn’t kill you – hurts

Pain drain, Pain numbs

Pain in a box – hidden away

wanted to avoid it

numbed life with its haunting shadow

The unexplainable pain lurking in the depth

I dont want to see it

I dont want to open the lid

I dont want to deal with it

So it doesnt have a name

So it controls me

It holds me

Captive.

Because its still there.

It was always there.

shrouded and tormented, lying dormant

Unnamed, unseen, constant

Avoid, run, distant

My life stuck in a room with pain in its box.

Trapped.

Pain won’t go away

Until I change, and open the box one day.

Sit with it

In the open

Let others see

Until I make the room safe to do so.

Until I change

Until I turn

Unless I choose

To not want it to control me anymore.

Until I face it

Expose it

Realise that the pain is not mine to carry anymore

Bring to the open, the pain that was lurking

The pain I wanted to run from – I had to get closer to it

Closer still

Feel its raw burn

Touch the wounds

Cry

Feel

realise

Let pain out

see it

experience it

and

look at it

and know that I am not it

It is pain – I am me

know that I choose to accept it – I choose

to feel it

to name it, look at it and be separate from it

I can speak to it

Tell it what i want to do with it

Not run away from it

But tell it to go away

Im not scared

But it should be

I am strong

because I looked

and felt

and saw

and faced

and survived

Pain pain go away – your turn to run.