depression
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Hello darkness, my old friend. I wrote in the first line of my journal this morning, as if I was channelling the ghost of Simon and Garfunkel and trying desperately not to rewrite the song as the outpouring of what I was feeling. I wanted a unique feeling. Not some old crooners giving it some…
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As men, we’ve been conditioned for generations to believe that strength means suppressing our emotions. We’re told that being tough, stoic, and unshakable is the ideal. We’re encouraged to “man up,” to push through pain, to avoid vulnerability, and to believe that needing help is a weakness. This outdated notion is not only damaging to…
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What happened, when the voice of despair made an uninvited appearance.
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I used to suppress everything, so I didn’t feel anything Get through it Survive it Bounce Close off my heart, live a shrouded life. Any discomfort was barely even felt Or felt in silence, private and… then pushed through, and receive the weight , the noise of my own destructive self talk. Trauma voice shouting…
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Dangerously there were two words that I started 2023 with. It was as if, they were the words that were about to shape my life, weirdly. One of the words I wrote about, a little bit. The other I didnt. I wasn’t a bit fan of ‘manifesting’ or ‘goal setting’, for a mixture of reasons,…
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There was a time in July/August of last year when I was going through a pretty significant mental spiralling, down down and down. I was plagued by the bleak thoughts of self criticism, self sabotage, blame and self loathing, all things I realise I have been carrying since childhood, and all things triggered by events…
James Ballantyne 