emotional immaturity
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Maybe I was going to realise this eventually. For all that I have described the details of the abuse I suffered. What if it was just me. What if it was just me, and my family who suffered and experienced the monster. Our Monster. Because, its very likely isnt it? Thats the game they play…
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Anyone panic when that message or that text or email arrives? From ‘that’ person? Its like a shock, a reaction, pangs of fear, of guilt and brain on overload… Sometimes it is just better to block them, to avoid this possibility, but what if that isn’t possible..there needs to be contact? After 6 months of…
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Time is something Abusers like to control It’s also something that exists in a weird dynamic for them. When you dont reply to them, or include them they say How dare you not reply to my message! Or, maybe less abruptly Did you get my message, I expected a reply by now Often they want…
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Im not going to feel that now No, its not going to hurt me, I’m going to go rigid Switching off Numb I decided not to feel anything from a long time ago. It was the easiest thing at the time. It was more than that, it was a self protective thing, because of the…
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It wasn’t just the anger switch that I had turn off as a child. It was the happy joy one too. Its my job to bring you down to earth That Parent It was easier to hide that go through having to hear things like the following I need some of your joy, give me…
James Ballantyne 