feelings
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I used to suppress everything, so I didn’t feel anything Get through it Survive it Bounce Close off my heart, live a shrouded life. Any discomfort was barely even felt Or felt in silence, private and… then pushed through, and receive the weight , the noise of my own destructive self talk. Trauma voice shouting…
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With the love of new companions Angels that found me and a loving self I go To The wild path. Step out onto its mysterious threshold hurting, pained, afraid The first act of love To walk the wild path Alone, but not alone. Stones reveal their shapes Masking my pain. Unable to feel, their jagged…
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Three days ago my mum died. Yeah, thats quite a start to a blog isnt it. I mean I could have warned you, or said something reflective, or a nice quote. But no. Three days ago my mum died. And the hardest thing about it, so far, has been trying to share this news, to…
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Let the flame of anger free you from all falsity (John O Donohue, To Bless the space between us) In one of the books I am writing at the moment, I am about to talk about the feeling and emotions around Anger, it is already half written, it needs expanding, yet, as today I read…
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It started with a goldfinch, making its pearl like chirping from the tree, just outside St Cuthbert’s Church, Darlington. Ordinary Goldfinch. Making me take notice at it. And ended with a Bumble bee scrambling for the pollen in the blossom in the trees opposite. And in between that distance of less than 10 metres, I…
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Awakening: Comes, from Breakening, Surrendering, Feeling, Shouting, Raging, Crying, Shaking, Hurting, Fearing, Swearing, Grieving , Hurting, Confusing, Darkening, Spiralling, down down down…. further, down… Until: Then…waiting… Silencing, Listening, Remembering, Resetting, Knowing , Singing, Sparking, Firing, Loving, Healing, Soothing, Realising, Changing, Self respecting, Self loving, Warm compassion wins again. Gently, All over again. Recovering, Forgiving, Loving,…
James Ballantyne 