Emotions
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Dangerously there were two words that I started 2023 with. It was as if, they were the words that were about to shape my life, weirdly. One of the words I wrote about, a little bit. The other I didnt. I wasn’t a bit fan of ‘manifesting’ or ‘goal setting’, for a mixture of reasons,…
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I had expectations for today. Last Saturday I was working, today I am not. When I was out walking during the week I was talking to a dog walker who was telling me about the Otters in Darlington on the main Skerne river, saying that the best time to see them was in the mornings.…
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It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter if your heart feels heavy wounded, broken, or hard It doesn’t matter if you are acceptable or powerful It doesn’t matter if you are in prison or free It doesn’t matter what you have or what you dont have It doesn’t matter if you are at the beginning or…
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Its ok to not be ok But what if ‘norm’ was a depression that I didnt realise was? I’m pretty sure now that I was depressed but I just didnt realise how this had been my normal experience. Thats a conclusion I came to a month or so ago. I had never thought of myself…
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I attended my first ‘religious’ service for quite a long time yesterday, I haven’t gone to ‘church’ for a long while, though I used to, weekly. But yesterday in my team meeting, as I work for the methodist church, we shared communion. A number of the team brought something to share, including songs, poems and…
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I’ve been pondering on writing this piece for a few days now, wondering if it is suitable, wondering how to express it, especially as it’s kind of simple. Full disclosure, I have been back receiving therapy since October, on that journey of remaking, regrouping and rebuilding. One of the revelations from it, was the simple…
James Ballantyne 