I found myself in the Wilderness

Wilderness wasn’t a choice

I didn’t go, I didnt choose, it wasnt what I had planned

It was where I found myself

lost

confused

pushed

with no-where else to go

asking for help

asking for love

asking for safety

lost..but closer to who I am

but I didnt realise it,

not at the time

I wanted to survive it, like I survived everything

not feel it

not listen to it

find a way to make it over

not sit in it

I will be ok – but I need to get there

I am ok – but I have to walk through this

slowly

listen to the heartbeat of silence

feel the steps

wilderness found me in it

but I felt safe there

Safe in no mans land

Safe to feel

Safe with less

Safe in the sanctuary

Safe to discover

not lost, but found

I found myself in the Wilderness,

It chose me.