James Ballantyne

Self awareness

  • Alchemy 101.

    You gave me eggshells. A daily game I couldn’t win. Secrets of your stealing I had to hide. Damages behind doorsThat no one at them time. Would know. You gave me eggshells. Laying them out on the lounge carpet every… Continue reading

  • Wonder Met.

    And there she found me. At the window. Summer SunShining through. Glimmers of lightOn my body hair. Miracles of me. And there she found me.And invited me. To hold her handA while. And trust. Her touch. And there she touched.… Continue reading

  • Take what you Need (18/06/26)

    I wrote these 25 random sentences today.  As heart and soul dumps on Substack, some of which started in my journal today.  Take what you need.  Let me know what resonated for you in the comments, and if you like… Continue reading

  • The Last Death (is never the final one, nor the first)

    Right now my head is spinning.  Right now my head is terrorised.  Right now it’s pounding and pounding.  High alert signals protrude into every other moment.  Head raging. Head spinning.  Pulsing into high alert.  I want it to stop.  I… Continue reading

  • Like Me.

    What the Algo makes of us. Like meLike meEveryone subscribeTo meLike meAmused by meShocked by meEveryone subscribe To meLearn from meHelpful meLike meLike meDon’t be upset by meSuscrtibe to meA little bit moreLike meLike meLove meAdore meLike meLike meSee meShare… Continue reading

    Like Me.

  • Nobody with No-body.

    Loving myself, meant loving my body. All of it. For 40 years I felt one form of body shame or another.  My innocent nakedness was shamed early by my mother. Her favourite story to tell on every occasion, even to… Continue reading