The Greatest Challenge

Have you worked out the Greatest Challenge in Life yet?

The easiest thing, is to be doing something. To be continually doing something. To be planning to be doing something is still doing something.

To be doing.

Last week I got over 40 ‘likes’ on a facebook post about something I had been ‘doing’ – 3 days of safeguarding training with the Methodist Church btw.

Doing something.

It may be physically impossible to ‘do nothing’ for an hour – our bodies have to breathe, our senses listen to the sounds from outside, or music playing, but what if being was valued more that doing?

What happens if you try and sit and ‘be’? What creeps in? – A task, a worry, a thought? A distraction – the voice that says ‘ you should be doing something’ ‘ dont be lazy’ ..its always a critical voice – and what I do when I hear that voice – sometimes give in, sometimes try and distract from that voice…by doing something… ugh, and so it continues.

And there’s no option for this when in the moment of survival in abuse, the mind is utterly active, and my body just wants to be active to compensate. Thats why I anxiety clean. Its why I needed EMDR to rewrite my brain, so I could sit.

But- back to this moment.

Here,

Now:

Sitting still, just for a moment.

The greatest challenge.

It takes a fight to sit and just be.

It takes courage to be.

To sit and breathe.

To listen.

Not just to the externals of some music or the sounds from outside- that are tempting to go and see

But listen to the noise of my internal breath

Listen to the sound, of quiet, of silence

And notice myself.

Just being.

How good are you at being? How are you in your being today?

What if I ‘just’ sit and be? and its not even just sitting, that makes it out to be something secondary, what if ‘being’ was valued and important, what if being me, being you was the ‘most’ important thing. What if it wasn’t a luxury to have a moments peace and quiet, but something valued, and treasured by all, and encouraged in each other. I could easily do a million and one other things, but the most important and difficult thing.

Just to be.

Realising the life in every breath. In every moment.

Giving your self time. Time for yourself.

Its not about getting off one rat race and finding another, but noticing the being inside. Bringing awareness to your very soul, and being, and heart. Its you that matters.

So just sit. And be.

Be with yourself for a while. Sense the life within. Sense you.

References

Gary Zukav – The Seat of the Soul

Eckhart Tolle – The Power of Now/ A New Earth.