Save Some for Yourself

‘Save some (of the fight/energy) for yourself’

Said the older man in the film Pride, to the main character Mark, who has been fighting injustice all his life, and now is about to have to focus on a fight for his own life from AIDS, whilst also maintaining a fight for LGBT equality and also for the mining village.

Pride – A movie I can only watch with tissues. Tears flow almost every time, and tears at different parts.

‘Save some for yourself’

I did not know what this meant when I first heard it, but it still resonated. Actually thats not true, I spoke a number of excuses instead reasoning against the need for doing it. Sometimes my inner dialogue can go something like this:

Save Some for Yourself

But I must keep busy

Save Some for Yourself

I dont need to do that, Ill bounce, ill survive – I always do

Save Some for Yourself

If I dont do that task – no one else will

Save Some for Yourself

There’s a crisis, I must go

Save Some for Yourself

I wouldn’t know what to do if wasn’t helping or serving

Save Some for Yourself

I can cope, I can always cope

Save Some for Yourself

I dont deserve to give myself time

Save Some for Yourself

That sounds wussy and weak, I need to stay strong

Save Some for Yourself

That sounds selfish

Save Some for Yourself

I can’t show my feelings

Save Some for Yourself

Ill be ok

Save Some for Yourself

You’re not telling me to do self-care are you?

Save Some for Yourself

Ill be fine, honestly

Save Some for Yourself

Its nothing, ill get through it

Save Some for Yourself

You have no idea what I have to do, I dont have time to do that

Save Some for Yourself

I like to feel needed

Save Some for Yourself

This battle isn’t going to be won without me

Save Some for Yourself

But, that means doing something new

I dont like that

Save Some for Yourself

I still dont deserve this

You actually care about me, dont you?

Save Some for Yourself

I dont want to, it sounds hard

Save Some for Yourself

Are you sure? really

Yes …Save Some for Yourself

I dont know how, and it still doesn’t feel right

Thats ok, it will, slowly, gently does it, are you ready now?

I think so

Gently does it, you got there, breathe and let me talk to you behind the mask, behind the layers, my friend

Save Some for Yourself

Save some time, quality time

Save some energy, to do something fun

Save some space to be somewhere safe to get to know your heart and soul

Save some space to allow your feelings to express themselves safely

Save some time to be curious about your inner self

Save Some for Yourself.