The Journey.

I realised something today in doing a Mental Health Awareness course with work. It was that I am so proud and pleased with the journey I have been on
When in the past suicidal thoughts were common from the age of 9
When negative thoughts crowded my mind, constantly
When I gave in to self soothing behaviours
When I felt shame
When I disconnected from feelings
When I couldn’t look anyone in the eye – when they asked.. ‘Are you ok?’
When I lacked any joy, dreams, or self worth
When I was in survival mode
When I travelled through life sacred, bruised and with a lingering depressive state.

So…as I sat in the room, I realised the extent to which I have dug deep, how much I have faced fears and inner demons  and stood up for myself, how I’ve sought professional help.
Sometimes it’s just important to be grateful for the journey…the one before ..and the one emerging …..