Calling from the Blue

And then….

The lights went out

Darkness filled the air

Stillness hung like smoke

No-thing

Space for fear to come in

Dread

Alone-ness

Oh how those disciples of Jesus, and the women, and others, each of them lost in different ways,

facing the end, death, and an uncertain life

Allegiances loosely pledged, dashed, unfulfilled.

Wondering lost in the next

That hadn’t started, that wasnt there

Just lost.

They probably woke early, even if exhausted,

To the new darkness approaching.

They had nothing to wait for, because nothing was expected.

Grief freezes

Grief holds

Grief and Anger mixed together in a soup of despair

The poignancy of the empty blue sky

and the shadows of the day before.

The rush to start the new,

to move forward

to get on with life

to run, avoid, fill up time

Blue deep sky in the morning.

Blue hearted

Death is the great wound in the universe, it is the ultimate vulnerability that overshadows every footstep

John O Donohue, Divine Beauty

Yet…. love waits, calling from the blue

Calling from the tears

Calling from the unfulfilled dreams

Calling from the nothingness

Calling from the truth

So…

Take your time

Its important that you feel

And feel it deeply

No rush

Take your time

Its important that you feel

and feel it

wholly.

A known path is often full of potholes

Take your time

Its important that you feel

your way

led on the wings of the angels

carried at their speed……

not yours

not the speed that you were going

as you rushed to make it happen

headlong into perfectionist headache

Running from avoidance in your heart

No rush

Take your time

Life awaits

and calls you

in the midst of

in the midst

of

the waiting

the liminal space

between

the death of the old

the awakening of the new

Take your time

No rush

It’ll be there

Yet in this moment

in its ambiguity

in its uncomfort

in its wrestle

is your working

is where your life tools get chiseled

Self compassion and care make their deepest clean

Dreams wrestle with reality

Frustration becomes a higher calling

to a place beyond, not yet felt

not yet in..

Take your time

as an act of love

a gift to yourself

to embrace this now

embrace this gift

let it change you

make you

teach you

No rush

Take your time

Life day will happen

Resurrection day will happen

In your soul, in your heart

and

now

its just making itself known

awakening your heart to feel it

in the midst of this now

So

No Rush

Let Love move in its slow way

Beyond the blue

in the blue.