Healing
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There was a time in July/August of last year when I was going through a pretty significant mental spiralling, down down and down. I was plagued by the bleak thoughts of self criticism, self sabotage, blame and self loathing, all things I realise I have been carrying since childhood, and all things triggered by events…
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I had expectations for today. Last Saturday I was working, today I am not. When I was out walking during the week I was talking to a dog walker who was telling me about the Otters in Darlington on the main Skerne river, saying that the best time to see them was in the mornings.…
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May Today May Today the touch of your soul awaken you May Today the colour of the crocus delight you May the growing daffodil awaken you to possibilities May today you be aware but not overwhelmed May today peace finds you May richness of love open you May today be lived for you May today…
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It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter if your heart feels heavy wounded, broken, or hard It doesn’t matter if you are acceptable or powerful It doesn’t matter if you are in prison or free It doesn’t matter what you have or what you dont have It doesn’t matter if you are at the beginning or…
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Its ok to not be ok But what if ‘norm’ was a depression that I didnt realise was? I’m pretty sure now that I was depressed but I just didnt realise how this had been my normal experience. Thats a conclusion I came to a month or so ago. I had never thought of myself…
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I attended my first ‘religious’ service for quite a long time yesterday, I haven’t gone to ‘church’ for a long while, though I used to, weekly. But yesterday in my team meeting, as I work for the methodist church, we shared communion. A number of the team brought something to share, including songs, poems and…
James Ballantyne 