James Ballantyne

The Universe conspires to help the dreamer

Paulo Coelho

  • Making Choices or Making Mistakes?

    I made the choice to stay in bed the extra two hours this morning Then when I woke up I chose to have a shower I chose coffee over tea then cereal over toast, id have loved blueberries on it,… Continue reading

  • Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 24) Stealing and Hiding what I needed

    Theres something interesting that happens when you are told as a child messages like: ‘Were not going to spoil you’ ‘He’s asking too much ______ (insert my Dads name)’ ‘No’ ‘You dont need that’ ‘You’re not allowed to ask for… Continue reading

  • Pain, pain, go away

    Pain, Pain, go away Don’t come back another day Pain, Pain, hide away Don’t want to deal with you- till I say Pain , Pain, lingering long Ive always been, in the wrong Pain, Pain, go away I don’t want… Continue reading

  • We need to talk about Parental Stalking.

    Stalking, tends to be focussed on one type in the media. Men grooming young people, or partners in an abusive relationship. The day after I wrote this piece, I saw this one on the BBC website but it is defined… Continue reading

  • Gap the Mind

    Mind the Gap Between the train and the platform edge Mind the Gap Step over the gap But what about Gap the Mind? Yes, your Mind – Yes, my Mind Is it locked onto overdrive? Whats its thinking about today?… Continue reading

    Gap the Mind

  • Naming my Shame

    I think I’m being abused I said Tentatively Because, I was scared to say it out loud Because, I didn’t want to admit it Because, I thought I’d be responsible for the abuse Because, it was always my fault Because,… Continue reading

  • They always leave a Trail (and its bigger than you imagine)

    We all do this, in whatever we do and however we are. As I am writing job application forms at the moment, I realise that I have an employment trail, and also a trail of where I have interacted with… Continue reading

  • I Am The Sky

    I love this from Eckhart Tolle: When you are full of problems, there is no room for anything new to enter, no room for a solution. So whenever you can, make some room, create some space, so that you find… Continue reading

  • Healing through Hobbies and Interests

    ‘Tell us about any Hobbies and Interests that you have’ This used to be one of the common questions in job interviews, the kind of thing to add in the later section of the ‘Record of Achievement’ burgundy coloured leather… Continue reading

  • Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 23) Growing up Emotionally Alone

    We are all together alone, and these are just wishes, and I am just dreaming Perfect Place, Voice of the Beehive 1991 That was one of my favourite songs as a young teenager. I still have the cassette tape. Something… Continue reading

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