James Ballantyne

James

  • Feeling the soul

    I can’t be understood I can’t be thought I can’t be bought I just am I am only felt I am only listened to Soul Heart Soul feeling Voice between the thoughts Inner life The dark night The prompting voice… Continue reading

  • Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 21) Accepting delusional normality

    If you’re like me and have spent a lot of your life reading or watching politics, you may know about the phrase ‘hyper-normalisation’ . I dont know who coined it, but its spoken of in depth in Adam Curtis’ brilliant… Continue reading

    Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 21) Accepting delusional normality

  • Holding the weight, when the other doesn’t

    I was wondering, what are the things we do, when in the midst of abusive relationships, before we realise that it wasn’t actually us? Therapy is one of them This reminded me of more….in an abusive relationship, of some of… Continue reading

  • Tears of Validity

    Validation Vindication Someone else gets it Someone else believes me Someone else names the monster Someone else means, im not alone It means It wasnt me It wasnt my fault There was nothing I can do There was nothing I… Continue reading

  • When there is nothing, but relief

    I wonder – does ‘grief-guilt’ exist? Not the ‘I should have done this’ ‘ I could have prevented something happening’ kind of guilt – when there is grief – a bit like this But more, like , that feeling when… Continue reading

  • Inner work is like a Sourdough starter

    I need to treat myself, like I do my sourdough starter. That fresh flour, clean new green grapes and warm water all combined Stirred in a bottle Waiting for the reaction. Excitement builds as the bubbles emerge as its kept… Continue reading

    Inner work is like a Sourdough starter