James Ballantyne

Emotions

  • The Soul

    Christelle and I shared a few thoughts on ‘The Soul’ and wrote them down here: When you contemplate the soul, what comes to your mind? What do you feel? What explodes out of you? Continue reading

  • What path do you choose?

    Is it the one that looks outside? And sees the things all shiny and inviting Or sees the platform, the status or the power? The one that still wants to win, at all costs? Is that the path you still… Continue reading

  • Holding the weight, when the other doesn’t

    I was wondering, what are the things we do, when in the midst of abusive relationships, before we realise that it wasn’t actually us? Therapy is one of them This reminded me of more….in an abusive relationship, of some of… Continue reading

  • Tears of Validity

    Validation Vindication Someone else gets it Someone else believes me Someone else names the monster Someone else means, im not alone It means It wasnt me It wasnt my fault There was nothing I can do There was nothing I… Continue reading

  • When there is nothing, but relief

    I wonder – does ‘grief-guilt’ exist? Not the ‘I should have done this’ ‘ I could have prevented something happening’ kind of guilt – when there is grief – a bit like this But more, like , that feeling when… Continue reading

  • ‘How can I stop myself becoming like them?’

    Spiders, Clowns, Heights, Buttons, Spaces, The dark, Nuclear war, being bullied at school…. These weren’t the things I fear in most of my life. It wasnt things. It wasnt just ‘that parent’ that gave me considerable terrors. Have a read… Continue reading

    ‘How can I stop myself becoming like them?’