Emotions
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (part 16) Putting my feelings in shutdown mode
Im not going to feel that now No, its not going to hurt me, I’m going to go rigid Switching off Numb I decided not to feel anything from a long time ago. It was the easiest thing at the… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 15): Learning to walk small.
The only way to survive navigating walking on eggshells with an abusive parent, or partner, is to make yourself as small as possible. In that way less of you can get cut on the sharp shells. Theres sometimes at least… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 14): Hiding the Treasure
It wasn’t just the anger switch that I had turn off as a child. It was the happy joy one too. Its my job to bring you down to earth That Parent It was easier to hide that go through… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 13) Accepting the accusations of selfishness
Don’t you be so selfish You were such a spoiled child, I had to get that out of you Don’t you even dare even ask for that You need to think about things from my point of view Ultimately there… Continue reading
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Unlearning the Evangelical Self Loathing
I dont deserve to feel warm (Me, aged 9) I cannot remember what I had done. But whatever it was I had been punished for it and then I felt guilt and self loathing afterwards. All your Sins can be… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 9): Pretending and Hiding
One of the ways of surviving emotionally immature parenting, in fact possibly the only way is to pretend. Because, unless you fit into the role they have for you, you are in trouble. So, even if you don’t want to… Continue reading
James Ballantyne 