Journey
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Recovering and Healing (Part 1) Discovering Appreciation
Its such a trivial thing, I said to my therapist (almost as I put on my jacket to leave at the end of the first session) But I’ve realised how much I like to feel appreciated Me, early 2019 ‘Its… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (part 16) Putting my feelings in shutdown mode
Im not going to feel that now No, its not going to hurt me, I’m going to go rigid Switching off Numb I decided not to feel anything from a long time ago. It was the easiest thing at the… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 15): Learning to walk small.
The only way to survive navigating walking on eggshells with an abusive parent, or partner, is to make yourself as small as possible. In that way less of you can get cut on the sharp shells. Theres sometimes at least… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 14): Hiding the Treasure
It wasn’t just the anger switch that I had turn off as a child. It was the happy joy one too. Its my job to bring you down to earth That Parent It was easier to hide that go through… Continue reading
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6 months of Healing for Men; Thank you
I thought I would write a short piece to thank the many of you for encouraging me as I have written my story in the last few months. I was hesitant even to start this blog 6 months ago, and… Continue reading
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Unlearning the Evangelical Self Loathing
I dont deserve to feel warm (Me, aged 9) I cannot remember what I had done. But whatever it was I had been punished for it and then I felt guilt and self loathing afterwards. All your Sins can be… Continue reading
James Ballantyne 