Trauma
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 15): Learning to walk small.
The only way to survive navigating walking on eggshells with an abusive parent, or partner, is to make yourself as small as possible. In that way less of you can get cut on the sharp shells. Theres sometimes at least… Continue reading
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Healing Dreams
The Problem was that with just under a month to go until the exams and every free moment was crammed with information, when he (Harry) went to bed he found it very difficult to get to sleep at all, his… Continue reading
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Unlearning the Evangelical Self Loathing
I dont deserve to feel warm (Me, aged 9) I cannot remember what I had done. But whatever it was I had been punished for it and then I felt guilt and self loathing afterwards. All your Sins can be… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 11): Being the Trophy child
Theres a weird dynamic that I had to wrestle with in talking about all of this stuff. Its knowing that as I grew up as the older child of the psychopath parents, I was the trophy child. So, when talking… Continue reading
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Responding to the Treacle Days
Like wading through treacle. Trying to walk through fog. Every now and again I get one of these. Beyond the healing and surviving. Beyond the self understanding, and in the safety, peace, love of my new life. Maybe I thought… Continue reading
James Ballantyne 