James Ballantyne

Trauma

  • The Power of Jet:Lag (the game)

    There was a time in July/August of last year when I was going through a pretty significant mental spiralling, down down and down. I was plagued by the bleak thoughts of self criticism, self sabotage, blame and self loathing, all… Continue reading

  • Shining a light onto my Depression

    Its ok to not be ok But what if ‘norm’ was a depression that I didnt realise was? I’m pretty sure now that I was depressed but I just didnt realise how this had been my normal experience. Thats a… Continue reading

  • I’m Glad my Mom Died

    ..is a raw, heartfelt, inspiring book. It’s about the way in which the unconscious expectations are placed on a child, it’s the story of how a child, then teenager, Jeannette McCurdy, has to resist growing up to maintain the fantasy… Continue reading

    I’m Glad my Mom Died

  • Male Sensitivity : Part 1 (Realising my own)

    Toughen up You need to stand up for yourself Wimp You’re being sensitive Softy Pussyfoot And the ultimate.. Stop being so Gay.  All words Ive heard in my life, some at school, some in places that were meant to be… Continue reading

  • Healing my (non) Anger.

    Anger is a Sin Dont you dare get Angry Good people dont get Angry We Shouldn’t feel Angry when we do A good boy doesn’t get angry. Anger will turn someone away Anger will mean someone else has to take… Continue reading

  • Accepting the Positive.

    I wonder if this is a typically British thing. Lets face it, its far easier to put our complaints out in the open and enjoy the attention it receives. Playing victim can be an art form. The weather. What ‘someone… Continue reading