James Ballantyne

abuse

  • True Courage

    Im learning courage Not the courage to climb, to fight or to be successful Not the courage to be disliked, or happy But the courage to listen to the frightened parts of me The courage to love those parts The… Continue reading

    True Courage

  • The Root that Took

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    The Root that Took

  • Naming my Shame

    I think I’m being abused I said Tentatively Because, I was scared to say it out loud Because, I didn’t want to admit it Because, I thought I’d be responsible for the abuse Because, it was always my fault Because,… Continue reading

  • They always leave a Trail (and its bigger than you imagine)

    We all do this, in whatever we do and however we are. As I am writing job application forms at the moment, I realise that I have an employment trail, and also a trail of where I have interacted with… Continue reading

  • 2 years of being able to breathe

    I realised this week that I’ve been able to breathe for 2 years now, these were the first two years I’d been able to breathe in my whole life I remember when I walked into the flat 25 months ago… Continue reading

  • Abusive Mothers: Some Children do ‘ave them

    (More than as as society we would want to admit) Culturally we have a problem with admitting and accepting that birth mothers are abusive. Its bad enough trying to go against the myth that they couldn’t be loving, kind and… Continue reading