disociation
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From Numbing to Noticing my Feelings
From numbing to noticing my feelings: Continue reading
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Playing the grown up (even at Primary school)
I think I must have been 7 or 8 years old when I got the lead role in the Primary school play, I was to take the part of the shop keeper. There was no selection process, other that my… Continue reading
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Its time to realise our wonderful bodies
My body is wonderful And so is yours Have you ever noticed? Said those words, to yourself? Thought of your body as wonderful? Just as it is? Its no more wonderful larger, smaller, fitter, leaner, younger or older Because it… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 19) The gifts of toxic gratitude
‘You’re just so ungrateful – after all I’ve done for you’ In my previous piece I talked about how my abusive caregiver in the way in which they cooked food, often would create inedible food, that actually could be damaging… Continue reading
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On Comfort Eating, and my relationship with food
If the end to the abuse and pain was at the end of a tunnel made of bread, then I spent most of my first 40 years on this earth trying to eat my way towards that distance unreachable utopia.… Continue reading
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The struggle to ‘do’ my own healing work
One of the hardest things for me about rebuilding after trauma is to do it. Its not a linear thing, but I find it fascinating that what I needed in the midst of dealing the traumatic situations was a calm… Continue reading
James Ballantyne 