Guilt
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Naming my Shame
I think I’m being abused I said Tentatively Because, I was scared to say it out loud Because, I didn’t want to admit it Because, I thought I’d be responsible for the abuse Because, it was always my fault Because,… Continue reading
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When there is nothing, but relief
I wonder – does ‘grief-guilt’ exist? Not the ‘I should have done this’ ‘ I could have prevented something happening’ kind of guilt – when there is grief – a bit like this But more, like , that feeling when… Continue reading
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How does Shame hold you?
‘When we (Men) reach out and be vulnerable, we get the shit beat out of us… and dont tell me from the guys…but from the women in our lives So I started interviewing men and.. You show me a woman… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 13) Accepting the accusations of selfishness
Don’t you be so selfish You were such a spoiled child, I had to get that out of you Don’t you even dare even ask for that You need to think about things from my point of view Ultimately there… Continue reading
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Unlearning the Evangelical Self Loathing
I dont deserve to feel warm (Me, aged 9) I cannot remember what I had done. But whatever it was I had been punished for it and then I felt guilt and self loathing afterwards. All your Sins can be… Continue reading
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Men; do we need to talk about guilt and shame?
It was part of my healing that some of my guilt turned to anger. When I realised that what I thought was my fault was a burden that wasn’t mine to carry As I discovered that someone else’s emotions are… Continue reading
James Ballantyne 