life
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Different Growth.
The hacking was brutal By darkness of night, they acted alone To fell To cut To wound Cutting deep Cutting through Exposing the raw, pure flesh of the core A spectacle A ridicule A supposed triumph At your expense And… Continue reading
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The letter any Narc Abuse survivor could write.
It changed my entire life when I was able to stand back, to stand in some safe distance from damaging relationships and realise what the patterns were of them. Even now, I have to remember what I know , and… Continue reading
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Writing the Rainbows
I sometimes, no, often, get myself into a spin. It happens, that when something is challenging, difficult and messy (mild words for ‘WTF is going on?’) I write. I write for myself, with words you will never see. I write… Continue reading
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From Breaking to Awakening.
Awakening: Comes, from Breakening, Surrendering, Feeling, Shouting, Raging, Crying, Shaking, Hurting, Fearing, Swearing, Grieving , Hurting, Confusing, Darkening, Spiralling, down down down…. further, down… Until: Then…waiting… Silencing, Listening, Remembering, Resetting, Knowing , Singing, Sparking, Firing, Loving, Healing, Soothing, Realising, Changing,… Continue reading
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Abuse and the fragility of self-belief.
‘You shouldn’t doubt yourself, you’re really good at’ Aww shucks, thank you But when those voices return Those ones You know the ones I mean Every action, every creative, public action is a huge sap of energy Self doubt shouts… Continue reading
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Save Some for Yourself
‘Save some (of the fight/energy) for yourself’ Said the older man in the film Pride, to the main character Mark, who has been fighting injustice all his life, and now is about to have to focus on a fight for… Continue reading
James Ballantyne 