life
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I am not I
I am not I. Continue reading
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Abuse is the relationship, not just the Incidents.
Emotional abuse, isn’t the moments, it’s the entire relationship. The whole thing. Interspersed with tiny moments of relief. The rest is eggshells. The rest is being gravitationally in their orbit. The rest is drama, upset, fracture. It’s not one event.… Continue reading
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Silence of the Lambs.
It wasn’t (just) what happened to you. It was the silence you had to keep. The silence you had to protect. The silence of the truth that could never be said. For Fridays Frosties. Keep the peace. Daddys not going… Continue reading
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The Invisibility of Male Victims..and Mens emotional needs.
‘Have you ever even bothered to think about men for a change? I’d like you to understand men better’ Theres a moment at the end of one of my favourite books Paulo Coelho’s ‘Eleven Minutes’ where the main character, ‘the… Continue reading
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Gratefully 48…mmmmm…
Thats the noise ive kind of made in the last few weeks as I’ve headed towards my 48th Birthday, which is today. A kind of deep, in the breath humming noise. A kind of wistful, soulful, pleasantly grateful feeling, of… Continue reading
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The gap, prized open. (for love)
I beganTo LoveMe. Because. A Gap Nudged. Prized. Open. Between. And so. There is. An I. And a Me. One……and the other A Gap in which. A pause is. A Gap in which There is ….is. A Space containing, radiating.… Continue reading
James Ballantyne 