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Is ‘It’s OK for Men to cry’ too simple to say?
Its ok for men to cry Is said often. But I was wondering whether its said too often, without any thought about the complexity of this. I wonder if it’s said too easily. I wonder if women need to hear… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 19) The gifts of toxic gratitude
‘You’re just so ungrateful – after all I’ve done for you’ In my previous piece I talked about how my abusive caregiver in the way in which they cooked food, often would create inedible food, that actually could be damaging… Continue reading
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How walking helped to heal me
Maybe each day you should just go for a walk Said my friend who I was staying with after leaving the family home in the midst of my breakdown. By myself? I thought? Without a purpose? Just a walk? Not… Continue reading
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On Comfort Eating, and my relationship with food
If the end to the abuse and pain was at the end of a tunnel made of bread, then I spent most of my first 40 years on this earth trying to eat my way towards that distance unreachable utopia.… Continue reading
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Realising that Now I can be Happy.
If only If only this happened, then I would be Happy If I bought this, I would feel complete If I achieved this..It would bring me wholeness If someone else did well at something – I would be joyful If… Continue reading
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Confession: I was that person who thought self-care was for weak people.
Can I confess something to you? I used to think all this was rubbish too. I fell into a trap of my own doing. Therapy was for weak people Thats what I thought. I didn’t need help, I helped others… Continue reading
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Avoiding emotions is like driving with brake stuck on.
Now I’ve done therapy, I can deal with everything, all the emotions! So when they arrive I know exactly what to do Disappointment, Anger, grief, self depreciation, annoyance, frustration, tick them all off, I just sit, breathe, and let wash… Continue reading
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Me and the Colour Purple (Part 9)
Theres a reason why I made the logo to this page purple. Purple became a healing colour for me. As a weird coincidence I watched 2 films in the summer before I left the family home for the first time.… Continue reading
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Healing is possible – when we walk
The day started like the last 3 on my summer camping trip to the Yorkshire dales. Grey. Drizzly. Wet But, after breakfast and tidying up, the smallest semblance of blue sky emerged. Just the tiniest bit. The tiniest blue in… Continue reading
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2 years of being able to breathe
I realised this week that I’ve been able to breathe for 2 years now, these were the first two years I’d been able to breathe in my whole life I remember when I walked into the flat 25 months ago… Continue reading
James Ballantyne
The Universe conspires to help the dreamer
Paulo Coelho
Life is a Journey paved with Love
James Ballantyne 