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Recovering and Healing (Part 7) Self-sufficient me had to ask for help.
I had no money, no job, no knowledge of where the next week was and was told to be out of my house. Self sufficient me. For the best part of the previous 18 months I had been trying to… Continue reading
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Loving ourselves through Healing
Be kind on Yourself Just be kind Soothe with warmth Be kind Be kind on yourself- when your mind is so focussed on the big things – you will put the recycling bags in the fridge or forget where you… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 18) Terrified by breakfast table Jesus.
Christ is the Head of this house So far, in parts 1-17 of my story of what I needed to do to survive psychopathic parenting, I have talked alot about emotional abuse, emotional neglect, narcissism and the drama triangle, and… Continue reading
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Healing started with me…
I was ok It’ll be ok Ive always survived Ill get through this Another thing to get through Im ok But I wasnt I was hiding I was pretending to say things were ok Whilst parts of me were screaming… Continue reading
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The Power of Story: Healing through Harry Potter
‘Why are you reading those, they’re just children books’ I once said to my late friend Bex Lewis about 7 years ago, and then I sat with her and watched a scene of one of the films, one with dementors… Continue reading
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Recovering and Healing (Part 6) Being taught to say F**k
But its rude to say it Just say it No, it sounds wrong Just say it I can write it down Say it James You mean its ok to Yes, just say it James. It feels uncomfortable, ill get into… Continue reading
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Recovering and Healing (Part 5) Taking Power back
It was a dark January Evening, I was staying at my friends house, and a month into starting a new job, I was about to attend in person training (its funny, ‘training’ was just ‘training’ in Jan 2019) , with… Continue reading
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Recovering and Healing (Part 4) Healing the Toxic time
Time is something Abusers like to control It’s also something that exists in a weird dynamic for them. When you dont reply to them, or include them they say How dare you not reply to my message! Or, maybe less… Continue reading
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Recovering and Healing (Part 3) Discovering the real me
As well as the space to discover what was good for me, to see the situation pdf my marriage, and childhood, in a new light, and to get therapy to help me with tools, part of my recovery and healing… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 17) Suppressing the spoiled brat
I want, doesn’t get I had to get that spoiled child out of you Its not ‘I want’ its ‘I would like’ or ‘Please may I have’ Said my parents on a regular basis, for most of my early childhood.… Continue reading
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