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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 12) Turning off the Anger switch
What did ‘Anger’ look like for you as a child? Were you an angry child? How did it reveal itself? What ‘relationship’ do you have with the emotion of anger? In this 12th part of my survival story, I am… Continue reading
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Unlearning the Evangelical Self Loathing
I dont deserve to feel warm (Me, aged 9) I cannot remember what I had done. But whatever it was I had been punished for it and then I felt guilt and self loathing afterwards. All your Sins can be… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 11): Being the Trophy child
Theres a weird dynamic that I had to wrestle with in talking about all of this stuff. Its knowing that as I grew up as the older child of the psychopath parents, I was the trophy child. So, when talking… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 9): Pretending and Hiding
One of the ways of surviving emotionally immature parenting, in fact possibly the only way is to pretend. Because, unless you fit into the role they have for you, you are in trouble. So, even if you don’t want to… Continue reading
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Responding to the Treacle Days
Like wading through treacle. Trying to walk through fog. Every now and again I get one of these. Beyond the healing and surviving. Beyond the self understanding, and in the safety, peace, love of my new life. Maybe I thought… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 8): I couldn’t do anything about it, but I knew.
Dad, Do you think theres an all powerful, sovereign, all knowing, overseeing, higher power, dominating force thats controlling all our lives? Said the front of the Fathers day I sent to my Dad when I was about 13. Inside it… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 7): Why I have to thank Roald Dahl (but didn’t realise until last week)
I was wondering a few months ago about whether there was any children story books written to help them see what domestic violence looks like, when it is against them, and by their parents. In Lindsay Gibsons book she refers… Continue reading
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Is Generation X healing from Baby Boomer Parents?
(This blog is written by James and Christelle to accompany their latest video which is here, in which we ask the same question. We would like to prompt a conversation about this, and would like to hear from you and… Continue reading
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Feeling grief; for the mothers day cards I could never send
I really have toyed with this one all week, I didn’t want to continue the series on surviving a psychopath parent, because what I needed to do this week was to take stock a bit, and be kind on myself,… Continue reading
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