James
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When there is nothing, but relief
I wonder – does ‘grief-guilt’ exist? Not the ‘I should have done this’ ‘ I could have prevented something happening’ kind of guilt – when there is grief – a bit like this But more, like , that feeling when… Continue reading
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Inner work is like a Sourdough starter
I need to treat myself, like I do my sourdough starter. That fresh flour, clean new green grapes and warm water all combined Stirred in a bottle Waiting for the reaction. Excitement builds as the bubbles emerge as its kept… Continue reading
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‘How can I stop myself becoming like them?’
Spiders, Clowns, Heights, Buttons, Spaces, The dark, Nuclear war, being bullied at school…. These weren’t the things I fear in most of my life. It wasnt things. It wasnt just ‘that parent’ that gave me considerable terrors. Have a read… Continue reading
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Allowing Shit to Settle
No thanks I’d rather pretend the shit didn’t exist thank you very much I’d rather add a whole layer of other stuff on top of it I’d rather pretend that the shit was actually roses without any thorns I’d rather… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 20) Turning up to school, with blood on my hands
(TW, Self Harm) There was blood on my hands every day I was in Primary school. No scars of the pain of abuse, apart from my own. Torn away skin On the top of my fingers. Every day pain. Squeeze… Continue reading
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Facing up to the Male Crisis
I have been reading ‘The Courage of Hopelessness’ by Slavoj Zizek (2017) , its a hard read but an interesting one. He tackles some interesting subjects , ranging from Brexit, The EU and in his last two chapters the responses… Continue reading
