Healing
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Recovering and Healing (Part 1) Discovering Appreciation
Its such a trivial thing, I said to my therapist (almost as I put on my jacket to leave at the end of the first session) But I’ve realised how much I like to feel appreciated Me, early 2019 ‘Its… Continue reading
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Learning the power of ‘No’
One of the earliest and hardest decisions I had to make, aged 19, was to say ‘No’ to someone. Its not surprising though because often in Christian ministry/youthwork No can be one of the hardest words to say. No, actually… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (part 16) Putting my feelings in shutdown mode
Im not going to feel that now No, its not going to hurt me, I’m going to go rigid Switching off Numb I decided not to feel anything from a long time ago. It was the easiest thing at the… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 15): Learning to walk small.
The only way to survive navigating walking on eggshells with an abusive parent, or partner, is to make yourself as small as possible. In that way less of you can get cut on the sharp shells. Theres sometimes at least… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 14): Hiding the Treasure
It wasn’t just the anger switch that I had turn off as a child. It was the happy joy one too. Its my job to bring you down to earth That Parent It was easier to hide that go through… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 13) Accepting the accusations of selfishness
Don’t you be so selfish You were such a spoiled child, I had to get that out of you Don’t you even dare even ask for that You need to think about things from my point of view Ultimately there… Continue reading
James Ballantyne 