Trauma
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They always leave a Trail (and its bigger than you imagine)
We all do this, in whatever we do and however we are. As I am writing job application forms at the moment, I realise that I have an employment trail, and also a trail of where I have interacted with… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 23) Growing up Emotionally Alone
We are all together alone, and these are just wishes, and I am just dreaming Perfect Place, Voice of the Beehive 1991 That was one of my favourite songs as a young teenager. I still have the cassette tape. Something… Continue reading
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Walking the slow path of Freedom
‘We’re free from the death camps – but we must also be free to – free to create, to make a life, to choose. And until we find our freedom to, we’re just spinning around in the same endless darkness’… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 22) The absence of life guidance
I have just read two books over the Christmas holidays, as I travelled to San Diego to spend my first Christmas with my partner, and now fiancé, Christelle. I knew I would have time on the journeys to read, and… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 21) Accepting delusional normality
If you’re like me and have spent a lot of your life reading or watching politics, you may know about the phrase ‘hyper-normalisation’ . I dont know who coined it, but its spoken of in depth in Adam Curtis’ brilliant… Continue reading
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When there is nothing, but relief
I wonder – does ‘grief-guilt’ exist? Not the ‘I should have done this’ ‘ I could have prevented something happening’ kind of guilt – when there is grief – a bit like this But more, like , that feeling when… Continue reading
James Ballantyne 