Recovery
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I did something this week that I’ve never done before. I googled, no, I read the wikipedia article on c-ptsd. Here it is: c-PTSD Because, not for the first time in my last few years, it has been something that my partner at the time identified that I might have, or be in the midst of…
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I sometimes, no, often, get myself into a spin. It happens, that when something is challenging, difficult and messy (mild words for ‘WTF is going on?’) I write. I write for myself, with words you will never see. I write for myself – and they end up in the draft pile I write for myself,…
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The best way for me to describe this is to tell you a story. Last Sunday morning I had fun with my camera. But. I had to make a choice to do this. Because, the previous Thursday I went out, hoping to have fun, a relaxing walk, mixing some bird watching and photography. But for…
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Now I’ve done therapy, I can deal with everything, all the emotions! So when they arrive I know exactly what to do Disappointment, Anger, grief, self depreciation, annoyance, frustration, tick them all off, I just sit, breathe, and let wash through me like a shower of life’s joys and gratitudes. Do I fuck. Actually, I’ll…
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Lying motionless, almost on my small balcony lay a bumble bee in the morning heat today Exhausted Barely clinging on to the edge of the wood, nearly about to drop down a 30ft gap close, to death So I googled what to do and mixed up a combination of water and sugar in a small…
James Ballantyne 