Healing
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Feeling the soul
I can’t be understood I can’t be thought I can’t be bought I just am I am only felt I am only listened to Soul Heart Soul feeling Voice between the thoughts Inner life The dark night The prompting voice… Continue reading
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Holding the weight, when the other doesn’t
I was wondering, what are the things we do, when in the midst of abusive relationships, before we realise that it wasn’t actually us? Therapy is one of them This reminded me of more….in an abusive relationship, of some of… Continue reading
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Tears of Validity
Validation Vindication Someone else gets it Someone else believes me Someone else names the monster Someone else means, im not alone It means It wasnt me It wasnt my fault There was nothing I can do There was nothing I… Continue reading
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When there is nothing, but relief
I wonder – does ‘grief-guilt’ exist? Not the ‘I should have done this’ ‘ I could have prevented something happening’ kind of guilt – when there is grief – a bit like this But more, like , that feeling when… Continue reading
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‘How can I stop myself becoming like them?’
Spiders, Clowns, Heights, Buttons, Spaces, The dark, Nuclear war, being bullied at school…. These weren’t the things I fear in most of my life. It wasnt things. It wasnt just ‘that parent’ that gave me considerable terrors. Have a read… Continue reading
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Allowing Shit to Settle
No thanks I’d rather pretend the shit didn’t exist thank you very much I’d rather add a whole layer of other stuff on top of it I’d rather pretend that the shit was actually roses without any thorns I’d rather… Continue reading
James Ballantyne 