Trauma
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Its not always sparkles Or rainbows Or endless bliss flowing freely Its not always sparkles It really isn’t Its not always perfect Its not always clear Sometimes it’s fog That feels very near Sometimes the weight feels heavy Sometimes the swirl goes around and around Sometimes peace is Struggle to be found Therapy isn’t magic,…
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But I bet you think you are. I did. I thought I was too broken to be fixed The fear of deep scars caused by abused too much To afraid to go there. Too weak to want to Too afraid of the consequences Didn’t know what it would take What it would mean Then all…
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Learn to love and appreciate your past. Fully embrace it, thank it for teaching you, and let go of any judgement that there was something wrong with it. Your past is uniquely yours. It happened. It’s sacred. It’s beautiful. Nobody else had it, and nobody else ever will. Embrace your past, hug it, kiss it,…
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I love this time of the year. Its the time of year when I wake up and drink coffee looking out of the window and see how the dark blue early morning light changes through the colours into the sunrise, admitted today it is just a grey light giving tree branches a dark effect. I…
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On two separate occasions when I was disclosing to the relevant authorities the abusive behaviour of my mother, I was asked the following question. ‘Why are you doing this now?’ It was 25 years since I had left the family home, and been a terrified abused child. Though her behaviour was still the same even…
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Something happened to you Something happened to you..that wasnt your fault Something happened to you…that wasnt your fault….and you had to do something as a result that you cannot talk about. Something happened to you..that wasnt your fault…and you coped in life with self soothing strategies…that you cannot talk about either. Something happened to you….that…
James Ballantyne 