Trauma
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Healing started with me…
I was ok It’ll be ok Ive always survived Ill get through this Another thing to get through Im ok But I wasnt I was hiding I was pretending to say things were ok Whilst parts of me were screaming… Continue reading
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The Power of Story: Healing through Harry Potter
‘Why are you reading those, they’re just children books’ I once said to my late friend Bex Lewis about 7 years ago, and then I sat with her and watched a scene of one of the films, one with dementors… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (part 16) Putting my feelings in shutdown mode
Im not going to feel that now No, its not going to hurt me, I’m going to go rigid Switching off Numb I decided not to feel anything from a long time ago. It was the easiest thing at the… Continue reading
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Responding to the Treacle Days
Like wading through treacle. Trying to walk through fog. Every now and again I get one of these. Beyond the healing and surviving. Beyond the self understanding, and in the safety, peace, love of my new life. Maybe I thought… Continue reading
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Surviving Psychopathic Parenting (Part 2) Why I broke my grandmothers clock.
‘Working with trauma is as much about remembering how we survived as it is about what is broken’ (Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score, 2014) I broke my grandmothers bedside clock. I didn’t kick it, throw it, sit on it,… Continue reading
James Ballantyne 