Healing
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Maybe each day you should just go for a walk Said my friend who I was staying with after leaving the family home in the midst of my breakdown. By myself? I thought? Without a purpose? Just a walk? Not just ‘walk the dog’ or walk to a place, or walk to get to something…
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If the end to the abuse and pain was at the end of a tunnel made of bread, then I spent most of my first 40 years on this earth trying to eat my way towards that distance unreachable utopia. When I say 40 years, I mean all 40 years. It was said of me,…
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If only If only this happened, then I would be Happy If I bought this, I would feel complete If I achieved this..It would bring me wholeness If someone else did well at something – I would be joyful If my team won- then I would be happy If only If something. Until the last…
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Now I’ve done therapy, I can deal with everything, all the emotions! So when they arrive I know exactly what to do Disappointment, Anger, grief, self depreciation, annoyance, frustration, tick them all off, I just sit, breathe, and let wash through me like a shower of life’s joys and gratitudes. Do I fuck. Actually, I’ll…
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Theres a reason why I made the logo to this page purple. Purple became a healing colour for me. As a weird coincidence I watched 2 films in the summer before I left the family home for the first time. One was 12 Years a Slave. The other was ‘The Color Purple’ Both astonishing films,…
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The day started like the last 3 on my summer camping trip to the Yorkshire dales. Grey. Drizzly. Wet But, after breakfast and tidying up, the smallest semblance of blue sky emerged. Just the tiniest bit. The tiniest blue in a sky full of grey, after a day of mist and cloud. Sometimes it just…
James Ballantyne 